In Greek Mythology the Phoenix is a symbol or rebirth and regeneration where it obtains a new life from the ashes of the past.Many of us have suffered some sort of trauma or hurt in our past .While browsing through the old post part of me wanted to just remove it from the site because as many of you reader do not know.. my last relationship ended....fatal...in this case not literally but tragically where both parties are at different healing levels .Some questions were left unanswered and quiet frankly... its for the best.. However after my last conversation with my ex I realized that I had grown.I was no longer the little meek woman who could not defend herself.I wasn't the door mat of mental and emotional abuse nor was I the pathetic girl played the suicide card to get attention.Im speaking to you all real here..because I am just that.. a human being with real emotions even though many of them are pathetic and pitiful.But from then on I grew......I was no longer trapped in my ashes.
I became the Phoenix coming out to the ashes and ready to take flight.
I found myself following the teaching of Buddhist and some practices of Hinduism.... Buddhism has its perks.... ive learnt to deal with the four noble truths which are ( Dukkha/suffering as being an inherent part of existence) Sumudaya (the cause of suffering is desire.Nirodha ( Suffering can be ended by detached oneself) Magga ( the Eightfold path to eliminate desire and overcome the ego).Everyday I say the heart chakra mantra ..Om Mani Padme Hum it helps me to keep calm and think about my actions before I do them.It's a prayer I say to God asking him to help me in my paths . To this I use a Japa mala which has 108 beads all use to help me say this prayer 108 times.In Hinduism the Guru Gita is used to worship the Guru or teacher in this case its to focus on God and having your heart reverend to him.It quiet long and almost (to me) impossible to concentrate on so I like to dedicate it to someone I care about .Sometimes that person is myself.This is so because at times,I think that no one else needs the help more than I do..
Its 2013 .... The more I see the more I learn , the more I feel the more I over come, the more I observe the more I understand.I thank God that I have been through what I did..I heard a saying that if God didnt think you were capable of handling and overcoming a situation he wouldnt have given it to you in the first place.I think I really needed to walk through that fire to become who I am now.The person I was back then.. was weak, and would have been destroyed easily in this new year .Coming to think of it I think at the end of it I became a woman.I became a new person equipped to deal with whatever comes my way... this is me... sprung from the ashes of my past... Phoenix
